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The Woman Who Keeps Names by Gloria Ogo
At the river’s edge, my mother warned me never to answer a woman
who calls your name from the water. Not because she is dead.
Because she is not. She comes at dusk
when the mangroves loosen their roots and the river begins to remember
everything it has swallowed.
She has no wings.
She wears a dress the color of drowned leaves,
and beads that knock softly against her throat when she laughs.
You will know her by the sound. Not beautiful.
More like a spoon striking the bottom of an empty pot.
She will ask you where you are going.
This is the first trick. She already knows.
She will ask whose child you are.
This is the second. She wants to hear whether you still belong to anyone.
My mother said: Do not tell her your name.
Do not tell her your father’s name.
Do not tell her the name your grandmother called you
when she wanted the dead to listen.
And if she offers you fruit, let it rot in her hand.
If she offers you gold, let it sink.
If she asks you to cross
run.
But I was sixteen
and sixteen is an age when warnings become invitations.
So when the woman stepped from the black water
with riverweed wound around her ankles, I did not run.
She held out one wet hand.
In her palm was a small white tooth.
Mine. I knew it immediately.
I had lost it when I was seven, beneath the mango tree,
and my mother had buried it, so another child would not find it
and grow beautiful with my luck.
See? the woman said.
You have been leaving pieces of yourself everywhere.
Behind her, the river opened. Not widened.
Opened.
A seam pulled through the earth.
On the other side were houses with blue doors,
children sleeping upside down from trees,
goats with human eyes,
and an old man carrying a lantern full of stars.
My mother is ninety now.
When she comes to the river
she leaves millet cakes on the bank
and calls me by the childhood name
she was forbidden to give away.
Sometimes I rise.
Sometimes I do not.
I have learned there are rules
even among monsters.
The woman never lies.
She only asks questions
whose answers change you.
And the river never takes anyone.
It only keeps
what we bring to it.