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TSEUQ by J.E.A. Wallace

I

Presumably

This castle is ancient

It looks old and tired and angry


In a tornado of snow

She stands still at its gates

Deaf and blind to all but her fear


The things that took

Her brother are in there

Claw-prints disappear inside

And his prints, smaller, dragged


The snowstorm fades

Then in the looming stone

Something claws and growls

She hears it clearer than herself

There’s a gap in its wall, presumably


II

There is no sun beneath the castle

Just the setting of the dying fire

And the feeding of its rise

Inside the muddy circle

That lies between the cells


Behind the metal bars of a brazier

The fire is as trapped as he is

The boy found by monsters

Picked up by the scruff of his grimy neck

And thrown in here for reasons

Unknown

But not unimaginable


He does not like waiting for sound

Everything is silence

Except for the crackling of his fellow prisoner

And the occasional scraping of his feet

Upon the dirt with its mysterious stains


But then,

What sounds

Could be good down here?

The clanking of keys that don’t belong to him?

The heavy footsteps of an approaching creature?

The scream of another poor sod in a forgotten cell?

The sound of his heart beating, for the first time, finitely?


Fear fills up his lungs like water

His fingers calcify to claws

He’s not sure who to pray to in this world

And then the silence is broken

By his sister’s voice through the wall


III

Between the walls

they move slowly

One noise could

bring the creatures

and neither the

brother or sister

know how to

outrun monsters

they’re especially

unsure how they’d

do it trapped

between enormous

slabs of stone so

they inch quietly

towards the tiny

hole of light so far

away but closer

than their home

which has moved

for both of them

from destination to

aspiration but they

keep their feet

careful like mice

and behind their

wide eyes a dream


IV

They shiver

At the threshold

Between the ghoulish shadows of the dungeons

And the ghostly banshees of the blizzard


“Where are we, Sis?”

Asks the boy (not unreasonably)

She does not answer


“How did we get here?”

Asks the boy (not expectantly)

She does not know


But the perpetually dissolving swirl hides possibilities

And the dry blackened stone holds none

On tenterhooks

They balance


V

It’s not like

She breathes and thinks

I haven’t stumbled blindly

Turning the voice in her head

Through something important before

Into a kind of beacon to focus on and cling to


Bollocks

He can’t find his voice

Flip flip flip flip flip flip flip

His heart is getting away from him

Bugger bugger bugger bugger bugger

There must have been a time when he wasn’t afraid


Oh

No


They each

Reach out


A cold hand

And find home


Bio

J.E.A. Wallace has been a hotel night manager, a car park security guard, and a barman in The House of Lords. Born and raised in England, he now lives and writes in America. His work has been published in Asimov’s and South Bank Poetry among many others, and his debut full-length poetry collection Are You Hurtling Towards God Knows What? is available now from Unsolicited Press.

Author's note

The inspiration for this piece was the idea of a reverse quest, where instead of journeying through a fantasy realm on a great adventure, someone is found there and brought home as if they had stayed out too late. And then in its writing, I became interested in how the structure and rhythms of each section could mirror what the characters were experiencing and so become more immersive for the reader. Ultimately, it became a hopeful piece about trusting there's always a way out of whatever dark place you find yourself.