Scylla by Bex Hainsworth

A nymph unburdened by beauty is a nightmare.


My barnacle flesh scratches against stone

as I curl up in my cave, full of octopus cunning;

folding many limbs around myself, cruel, content.


This was Circe’s gift: to make me a monster,

a maneater. The distant roar of Charybdis

rocks me to an easy sleep each night.


I know they will take the dangerous road,

right to my mountain door. The men,

the soldiers, the heroes. The semi-divine.


They taste of revenge, of justice

for the ripped dresses, for the temple maids

who lost the chase, the dryads who couldn’t

get away, and the goddesses who never escaped.

For Leda, and Persephone, and Helen. For Hera.


This is for my own golden bruises.


I hold vigil. My teeth are tapers, glinting in the dark,

for all my sacrificial sisters. No offerings

are made in my name, no altars, no prayers.

No matter. The sea provides settlement.


You should hear them scream for me.

I rip the last words from their throats

with claws like scythes.


Afterwards, wiggling a thigh bone free

with the stick of a ship’s mast,

I recite my affirmations:


let them know how it felt beneath their bodies,

let their hearts freeze at the thought of me,

let them know what it is to be truly afraid.


A nymph unburdened by beauty is their nightmare.


Bio

Bex Hainsworth is a poet and teacher based in Leicester, UK. She won the Collection HQ Prize as part of the East Riding Festival of Words and her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Atrium, The McNeese Review, Honest Ulsterman, New Welsh Review, and bath magg. Walrussey, her debut pamphlet of ecopoetry, is published by Black Cat Poetry Press. Find her on Twitter @PoetBex.

Author's note

In writing 'Scylla', I wanted to give a voice to a mythological figure who has been much maligned, often seen as the epitome of 'monstrous'. For Scylla, the metaphorical 'rock' in the idiom 'between a rock and a hard place', wasn't always a villain. I hoped to offer a nymph transformed a chance to recentre herself in her own story, turning the focus away from Odysseus and the fears of men, to the experiences of a woman, trapped in the darkness, condemned to a life of cold caves and cruelty.